3/5/2006
Today …
Damnly Damnly Damnly bad mood….
Haihz….
Bcoz of someone“s”….
I oso don’t know why I suddenly will got those kind of feeling…
But wad I know is …. Before I met them…I never so Pek Chek before….
If I angry too I can calm down very fast…. But this time not the same…
Not the same again… after start to knew them….
I am not clear too… whether I am the one who change become very very moody
or they r the one make me feel damnly bad… I cant differentiate any more….
Ya… Maybe they can be really really nice n sweet friends, but maybe they doesn’t
suit my style lo….
At first I tell my self I can try to follow they style…, they like to talk topic which I don’t like before ,
and I thought I can trend to follow them… they like to do those thg I don’t like….and I oso thought I can learn to follow them …
BUT !!! I found out I cant … I don’t wanna change…I want to be myself back….
Coz I found that wid u guys, I will be “pek chek” omost everyday… don’t know why….
U guy do the wrong thg I try to advice and u guy oso r the one call me try to tell out each other mistake… but u guy oso the one don’t hear my advice…
Ok Ok … Maybe I oso the one can’t tolerate….Nvm…. coz…. I decide oredi….
U are U and I am I…..
I m wad I am… I want to be myself back… find back all my truly fren…
Bcoz want to follow u guys, I ignored some of my friends….
I really sorry for them… but luckily she is stil stil still so good n nice to me…
Now !! I want to find back my truly truly truly FREN….
YA !!! Truly FRIEND….Mean that when I wid them… I never feel pek chek…. Although really pek chek , I oso can control myself very very fast…. Mean that I can share my problem wid them… without any “stress” !!!!
NOT like now…. Don’t want to be like now….
When I typing this post … I think long time…. Coz I know… aft I typing tis out…
Everythg will be not the same as before again…
However we are still friends…But, somethg are going to change…
U guys will not see how I angry anymore…. U guy will not see me pek chek any more…
COZ I want to FIND back MYSELF ….
FIND BACK MY OWN SELF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
我要回我的幸福!!!!!!
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2 years ago
11 comments:
? U seem so bad mood eh?? No wonder today u told me that u wanna die liao .... still thought wad was going on... anyway, ignore wad people say, try to be yourself ... understand wad do u want .. work hard to actualize ur dreams ...... i can always be ur listener, listen to your problems and console you .... i'll always be with ya my fren, Gambate!!
Thanks kenny...
meihui!!!
this meihui i know so hiong one,so kiang & steady ooo!!!
don defeat by those ppl,don let them control ur own feelings!!! let u be urself!!! we all like the way u r!~!!
hehe...anythg,tell me...(no kidding,hehe...although i always joke around with u...bt,sometimes,i m serious too,u know?)
hehe...all he BEST!!!
jiayou ooooo(^^,)
Thanks siaw yin...
ya...decided...
wanna be myself liaw...
hehe
...
MuakzZs...
(^v^)
u know, u never had to follow anyone, just be what u are, that's wad ppl like u for. and If 'they' wanna be that way, let them be, why wanna change them? did u ever think is all the things u advise them actually really correct too? ever think that u dont want to change yourself, u think other ppl wanna chage themself too? and, do u think everyone will think u are right too??
its not that ppl dont listen to u lar, ppl ask u whats rong, ur face black black bo hiu lang, and say "nothing rong" u think ppl still wanna ask u wad happen mer? and y make those small things such a big deal? if bei ngam, tehn i duno lar.
do u know sometimes when u bei song, u make a lot of ppl moody too? nobody like to talk to sour face ppl. if got prblm, say niar, dont kek wei3 da4 and pretend to hide your feelings for people, cos, u hurt more ppl when u fake it than when u tell the truth.
nobody force u to follow ppl ler. is u who choose who u wanna follow. if your frens before are what u think are your REAL frens, feel free to find them. But dont blind youself from new frens that are actually ikhlas just because you dont like some things they do. if u regret being frens wif some people, i feel sorry for u. cos you might actually have meant something to them.
this comment might be a little deep lar, try to understand. if bei song then delete lor. it's just advise, from the heart.
i think those 'frens' u regret knowing will be veri disappointed in u.
ps: scorpio: thinks one way only. never takes advise. thinks they are supirior.
got something to say back mar? we can continue to comment till u're satisfied^^
-a type of Friend that speaks her heart out as a fren. its u who has the ability to treat it as a frenly advise or a criticism-
I think u have misunderstand wad i write ...
i mean when i advice...i say many time then "them" ignore me n juz simply hiu me for a while...then i when i say again "them" say i dint say b4....many time oredi...but them dint noticed it...
when i oredi bored...i cant stand...n i m the type that easy to angry ....so i write at the post there i cant tolerate not them...needa me to highlight it ? k i will highlight it...see again ya...
true fren shldn't hv secret right? when they wispering secret.. i ask wad.. they oways say no...so i dint ask anymore...
n them say is truely fren.... did they see my blog at the first time? i think they spend more time on other ppl thg then mine lo...i hope they r the first 1 view this post then we mayb can comment till we all dint have anymore salahfaham then i can delete this post... they say they dont wanna read chinese do i out in english... but how long do they take to notice this post...if... juz if....i too too care of tis fren till i wanna commit suicide...juz if...then wad will happen to me now...
do they notice how manypost r here oredi b4 them noticed this post ?
mayb i seem like force them read... but nvm if they dint notice...
but my post r so long ago...if they saw now oso i think dint change anythg...i dont think i change in sch...i juz bcome happier...n if they really care wid me... they can see that i dint change...i posted this post doesn't mean that i wanna give up my frenship wid them...i will appreciate all my frenship...juz i wanna change my style back again n find back alll myfrenship again...including them
mayb my english not so good till i cant really say out wad i exactlly feel....
sorry... i noe this post hurted them a lot alot but juz want them noe i DINT GIVE UP OUR FRENSHIP....DINT !!!!!
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ps: scorpio: thinks one way only. never takes advise. thinks they are supirior.
ya....i tell them this b4...but do them really got hear what i say... they say it again seem like i nvr say b4...
n them seem like salahfaham again...i mean "we r still fren but somethg r going to change" mean i m the one changing.. i change myself... not angry anymore... not pek chek anymore...tis they should be know when we r in sch...i think if they really got notice n care me... i dint angry anymore within last week till now...nvr right ?
do i say regret know them ? if i do sorry...but i dint rite ?i dont think i do .....
sorry.. mayb my english too lousy till u guys got alot of misunderstanding... juz REALLY sorry !!!!
N I ADMIT THAT I REALLY CANT TOLERATE WID THEM>>> I M THE ONE NOT THEM>>> I M THE ONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok ????
then...wad ? tis is the 1st post that got many comment... if not... when will my post noticed by them... i think will be a long time lo... if i dint write tis post here...but this doesn't mean that i write this post simplily...i really do think long time to write it here...
ok....keep comment on... till no misunderstand between me n them....
aiya.. no nid say them them them liao lar.. noe is who liao lar...
oh.. i think u like this dun trust us is cos of our secrets.. thats sooo lame man.. do u noe some secrets are like.. reli deadly untill cannot be told? its like, some secret are so secret that u cannot tell ppl, if not, ppl will get hurt or image will be broken. dont tell me u never haf this type of secret. or mayb u ever haf this secret type of secret lar, but u will say out anyway, cos u're damn emotional mar. say out liao ppl will get hurt. dats y we better dun say oso lar.
anyway. ur blog we will see once in a while lar. u think we are like so the veri eng every single day want to noe everything about other ppl mer? u noe frens is got many lar, we got see ur blog shud happy liao ar. cos u special we baru see, some ppl blog hiu oso no hiu. and ler. we oso got emotions de, we got feeling de, we haf problems oso, we are not so free to 24 hours help ppl settle their emotions de, cos our own emotions not yet settle.
blog like this veri song mer? want ppl tong2 qing2 u ar? think lar. if u in our place. u noe that day,3rd may, we oso super moody or not.. did we blog like this? no ler right? we just treat ur attitude as normal liao.. cos u owez small things moody then face black black then duno wan us how baru can make u smile. we treat ur attitude that day as normal, forgivable for treating us like that(face black black and owez critisize us), we just think, after today, she ok liao lar, mayb is wrk oso. but who noes, u are there blaming everything on us.
u say i complain or not hor? u dunno that day how much u complain niar.. complain non stop. hear liao oso pek check. u know how u talk to ppl or not? u critisize ppl by shooting words to their heart u knoe? it hurts when u talk like that. like say xian this that.. i oso forgot say whar liao. watch what u say lar...
not 1 time niar u talk like that, omos everyday, we never say u niar cos we hear liao then suak, forgive n TRY TO forget, But this time u over liao lar, u think u're owez right cos we never critisize u niar. u think u can critisize ppl, u think u no rong lar? we advise u u got listen mer? are u gonna listen now? we telling u where your bad attitude is liao. we are telling u that u are owez moody, and, like that, seems like veri hao lien, dun wan hiu ppl, like u are the best. it reli sucks lar. tell u now feel better ar, atleast u know not only us haf bad points, u haf too. we got bad points but we didnt purposely go hurt ppl and make everybody around u moody. when we sad or angry, we got bo hiu u mar? we got face black black snap at u mar?
Tell u lar, when u no mood, u're face black, want to show u beh song, like that nvm lar, still like dun wan hiu ppl, make everybody around u feel bad, not only me n xian lar, elaine them oso can feel ur mood u noe?
if u haf problems, tell us staight, u're sadness ur happiness is can share de. like that baru fren enough. if reli cannot say then u blog niar la.. its ok, sumtimes is like that.. but, u're blogging everything, u din even tell us anything and say we dun listen to u. u dun wan share wif us oso and u wan us share wif u. think lar.........
this feel like explaining thing to ben oso.. say how many million times oso cannot masuk head. tonight read this comment over and over again untill u understand lar.. pek check.
Go change ur frens lar. cos they more ngam wif u, go back to ur old ppl lar, change ur style lar, do wad u wan lar, we nvr pull u or wad. yeala, we stiu frens lar, we understand if u dun wanna b close to us oso, cos we nt ur type mar rite?
and, u say u not going to be moody all that, ok, meaning u're nvr gonna share prblms or wadever again wid us ritE? go ahead, that's the same as not treating us as frens anymore. U CAN BE MOODY, BUT DONT SHOW THAT U ARE MOODY AND DUN TELL US ANYTHING. how can we help u if u bo hiu lang? how u expect us to understand anything.
u this time tooo over liao lar. bei tahan.
ok now wad ? u seem like more "wei da " than me lo...izit?...u oso bei liang me actually de la ? izit ? then why u dont juz say out ? k seem like u say me "wei da"...n now ? u r the more "wei da " one lar !!!!
THE MOST WEI DA DE LO!!!!!
tell u wad... i really appreciate this if u say it earlier to me...but now...u kek wei da till now then oso shoot me within one time...wah seh...u too WEI DA liaw...sorry ya ,,,make u feel so wei da for so long liaw....
that comment u send to me doesn't show u wanna solve the prob... u r getting out prob...nvm lo... i noe...u will say i m the one starting 1st rite ? nvm....u r wei da...n i m the one kek wei da... sorry for that...
i really apprieciate this comment if u say it out earlier...but now...not the correct time n correct place...
N wad i tell u...juz tell...u oways say thg till like u know everythg...tat make me sien,,,u guys crap on other ppl like u know them very well...now i suddenly feel xian is better than u ...althought she is not so wei da , but she say out wad i m ... n u ... now baru say...kek wei da than me b4...
anyway...thanks...really hope this prob can solve faster...bcome fren back like last time...so long de thg now u guy baru saw... wanna forget oredi than u go to talk again...
hope this can go off faster...my heart now more "open" liaw...coz i think i find back the fren will critic me like tis...i see...u noe me rite ? i admit wad u say on me...i admit... i m tat kind of ppl...but,,...thanks...hope we can be fren ... best best fren
hope aft this... we will no more secret.. critic out straight...cant face to face... then comment here....
hope... really hope...aft this prob solve... we will become more close than b4...that time i think no thg will misunderstand...dont be like now... so many misunderstanding...sorry ya .. for hurting u ...i know... really hurt...i feel it when u blog the last comment here...hurt really...feel a bit like "fooled"<--dont know how to say too.. but i really mean i sorry... n thanks for the scold...MY FREN...
but i think u will not talk wid me anymore rite ? like to day in sch...suddenly so sad ...wanna go to find u guy...dont dare... coz i know.. i m the one hurting u guys...
hope will solve this prob...n mayb we will become closer next time
so long de post... tel u ... i really regret now to post this... but i dont nope to close the post... coz it make me feel i find back not only myself... but oso u guy.. my fren... now baru like my true fren... critic on me... thanks....
if u dont want hiu me anymore... i oso bopian...but in my heart now...strat on tis minute...u become one of my true true fren oreidi...thanks... n sorry...
suan le ba.. sorry too.. we are all human, all veri suku. u're stiu our fren.. today just duno how to act in sch nia.. ><" hugs..
ya...all of us got our own "que4 dian3"...juz say nia if next time i make u guy feel bei liang...better than now... dont put in heart too long...if not prob like this will come out again...
i know...tis post will make u lose ur trust on me ... nvrm i will prove to u again...start all over again...make u trust me again...ya !!!
Juz remember lo...dont put everythg in heart again...if not explode again...
"><' HUGsZs HuGszZ...
strong strong HuGszz....
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